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delicataleThere are parts of fandom I really don't understand. Oh, well.
Recs! Both codas for 2.01 so if you haven't seen it, wait before reading these. They're wonderful though, so do read them!
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elandrialore. If you don't read everything she writes already you're missing out on pretty perfect fic. This one, though ♥.
and
half full bythegrrrl2002. It brought me to tears by being so right.
I wish I had that kind of talent, you guys. Go read!
I've never been the kind to have several fic projects on the go. I'd start a fic, focus on it, finish it, go to the next. I would also try not to bury myself under projects, because then I'd feel overwhelmed, scared.
But this fandom, I don't know. I have several fics started and not finished. I am signing up in the most random places, writing fics I never thought I'd write. And I do feel overwhelmed. I do feel scared, and I want everybody to hold my hand and tell me it's okay, that what I'm writing doesn't suck, that I can do it, come out on top. I don't feel like I can do it on my own, even when I want to, even when I try. On my own, I panic. This is why I post snippets and cling and am so needy. When it comes to this, I am not nearly as strong as I'd like to be. I am not confident about my writing, and this fandom is full of people with immense writing talent and I don't pretend I want to compete. I just want to be there, to be a part of it.
Now, I have several fics in the works/to be in the works soon, and I don't know where to turn to sometimes.
- Steve and his spinal cord injury and his surfboards and Danny and Grace and Mamo. It has now reached 7K, which feels like very little compared to the time I've been working on it. I'm reaching a state of mind where I just want to be done with it, even though I still don't want to rush it, and I still want to write it the right way, and tell the story how it deserves to be told. I don't know if it's any good.
- Steve and Danny thrown in the Terminator universe. Almost 3K, I give it my attention from time to time, in random bursts. It's not a lot of words but I feel like it's so much bigger in my head. There are so many things I didn't write (yet?) and I wonder if some should be written, or if people will make up their own images in their heads, if they need me to paint it out for them. I fiercely like some parts of it.
- 5-0 crashes a wedding. Case-fic complete with Catherine and silliness and making out in a broom cupboard fortailoredshirt. I love the idea I have for this even if I don't quite have the resolution sorted out (I was inspired by a s1 episode of Leverage), but I have not started it yet. I have moments of it written out in my head, I just need to know where to start and where to end it.
- The fic where Steve is an actual ninja and he spent a few years before joining the Navy, living and being trained by Shaolin monks in Tibet. When his mentor dies, he goes back to Tibet for the funeral and Danny follows him, under the excuse that he is worried Steve will start an international incident. I don't know about this one, you guys, because it sounds so cracky and yet it isn't at all in my head. And I have all these images in my head but I'd have to research so hard and it could fall flat, so I really. I really don't know.
So some of my friends, they have like, dozens of fics on the go and it works for them. I have 2 being written and 2 poking at my brain (I am not counting the WiPs/possible fics planned withsirona_gs though), and it already feels too much for me. Everyone's process is different, but I'm not used to this. I need handholding and reassuring and oh, wow, I am so annoying.
For your effort, have a beautiful screencap of Steve.
Recs! Both codas for 2.01 so if you haven't seen it, wait before reading these. They're wonderful though, so do read them!
to hold on to by
elandrialore. If you don't read everything she writes already you're missing out on pretty perfect fic. This one, though ♥. and
half full by
thegrrrl2002. It brought me to tears by being so right. I wish I had that kind of talent, you guys. Go read!
I've never been the kind to have several fic projects on the go. I'd start a fic, focus on it, finish it, go to the next. I would also try not to bury myself under projects, because then I'd feel overwhelmed, scared.
But this fandom, I don't know. I have several fics started and not finished. I am signing up in the most random places, writing fics I never thought I'd write. And I do feel overwhelmed. I do feel scared, and I want everybody to hold my hand and tell me it's okay, that what I'm writing doesn't suck, that I can do it, come out on top. I don't feel like I can do it on my own, even when I want to, even when I try. On my own, I panic. This is why I post snippets and cling and am so needy. When it comes to this, I am not nearly as strong as I'd like to be. I am not confident about my writing, and this fandom is full of people with immense writing talent and I don't pretend I want to compete. I just want to be there, to be a part of it.
Now, I have several fics in the works/to be in the works soon, and I don't know where to turn to sometimes.
- Steve and his spinal cord injury and his surfboards and Danny and Grace and Mamo. It has now reached 7K, which feels like very little compared to the time I've been working on it. I'm reaching a state of mind where I just want to be done with it, even though I still don't want to rush it, and I still want to write it the right way, and tell the story how it deserves to be told. I don't know if it's any good.
- Steve and Danny thrown in the Terminator universe. Almost 3K, I give it my attention from time to time, in random bursts. It's not a lot of words but I feel like it's so much bigger in my head. There are so many things I didn't write (yet?) and I wonder if some should be written, or if people will make up their own images in their heads, if they need me to paint it out for them. I fiercely like some parts of it.
- 5-0 crashes a wedding. Case-fic complete with Catherine and silliness and making out in a broom cupboard for
tailoredshirt. I love the idea I have for this even if I don't quite have the resolution sorted out (I was inspired by a s1 episode of Leverage), but I have not started it yet. I have moments of it written out in my head, I just need to know where to start and where to end it. - The fic where Steve is an actual ninja and he spent a few years before joining the Navy, living and being trained by Shaolin monks in Tibet. When his mentor dies, he goes back to Tibet for the funeral and Danny follows him, under the excuse that he is worried Steve will start an international incident. I don't know about this one, you guys, because it sounds so cracky and yet it isn't at all in my head. And I have all these images in my head but I'd have to research so hard and it could fall flat, so I really. I really don't know.
So some of my friends, they have like, dozens of fics on the go and it works for them. I have 2 being written and 2 poking at my brain (I am not counting the WiPs/possible fics planned with
sirona_gs though), and it already feels too much for me. Everyone's process is different, but I'm not used to this. I need handholding and reassuring and oh, wow, I am so annoying. For your effort, have a beautiful screencap of Steve.
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Date: 2011-09-22 08:39 am (UTC)I am so very thankful for the help ♥.