delicatale

So if you want to get some love and give some love, radioaches is hosting a What I like about you meme, which is always delightful. So join and share and give love!

I kinda have nothing else to say. I have not written much; I am seeing lanyon in a couple of hours and am reallllly excited! Football has also sort of taken over my life at the moment. It'll go away, don't worry.

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Okay, so, cage fighting Clint is finished, in the hands of my beta. Now, I want to ask, people. I know this has been asked multiple times on my flist before but if you have any opinion I'd like it:

What is, for you, an optimal posting time for a fic? I tend to avoid posting on weekends/Fridays, but that's all. Do you think the beginning of the week is better?

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You know, when you want to write a story so much, and you want it to be finished so much, because you want everyone to see the final result, because you're proud and excited about it, and it can't seem to get out of your head and fingers fast enough, and yet - time and real life are not on your side, and keep you from doing exactly that?

Yeah, that's where I'm at, at the moment. It's driving me crazy, and maybe it's another thing that is adding to my stress levels. I have managed about 1K a day for the past week, writing in the tube mostly, but it's not enough and I am driving myself to distraction thinking about how much I want to write, how much I want to post that story.

Because for now, I am very proud of it, and I really do think it's good, and I want people to read it, and hopefully enjoy it, and feel what I'm feeling for these characters.

Are you ready to wait? I don't feel like I am. Anyone want to get into my head and write it for me?

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I'm not memorable. People tend to forget my name, forget my face, forget that I exist, because I'm not one of these 'in your face' type of person. I have been left behind many times, so many times nowadays I'm paranoid of it.

And then there's the writing. My writing's not memorable, it's not something that sticks with people so much. It's enjoyable, fair enough, but is it memorable? I don't think so. I don't think there is a single person in the fandoms I've been in, or am in, that would say I'm their absolute favourite author because my words stick with them, and inspire them, and make them feel things no one else does.

It's back to the being average thing. It's back to me feeling worthless - I am sorry about that. I have had a couple of hard days at work and I'm not really sure what is my life doing at the moment, so I'm questioning everything.

This is not a pity-party post, I am not fishing for compliments. I'm putting it down here so I can try and get used to it, or think of what I can do to improve. In turn, a timely meme:

If you were asked to pick one scene, one shot, one detail, one moment of some kind out of all the things I've made and say "This, this, for whatever reason, I remember, this is something that struck home with me, that I wanted to keep," what would it be?

You don't had to answer if there is nothing coming to mind. I'll be back with silly fannishly posts soon!

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I am in so much pain right now. 24 hours headache turned into a full blown migraine this afternoon. Managed not to throw up, but the light in the office is hurting my eyes so much I can't stop crying.

I want to go home, curl into a bed in the dark and will it away, but I just started in this job and I just can't bear the thought of asking to go home early.

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Question - what fic do you guys really would like me to write? I know I've asked this in the past, but I thought I'll ask again, possibly for inspiration.

AU or not, in either of these fandoms: Hawaii Five-0 (Steve/Danny - I seem to have found my desire to write them again), Avengers (Clint/Phil, Steve/Bucky, Phil/Pepper, Loki/Darcy), Inception (Arthur/Eames).

Just, tell me about that plot you've been wanting to read forever, if you think I could do a good job of it. If you plan on writing it yourself, or you're super specific about it, it might be a disappointment to tell me though ;).

Also, full disclaimer: telling me about a plot bunny doesn't mean I'll write it. I want to kick start my Muse but she's picky, and I won't get to write everything, even if I wish I could write all of you everything you ever wished for ♥.

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Last night, I dreamt about being pregnant. Twice in one dream (when, in real life, it's a possibility I'll have trouble getting pregnant). Like, I gave birth and then there was an ellipsis and then I was pregnant again. Not even kidding, I get pregnant dreams when something big happens in my life. I've read somewhere that dreaming about being pregnant means a project coming to fruition, things like that.

Well, this afternoon I had yet another interview, with a big search marketing agency, the kind you hear about when you follow industry news and all, and it was a super technical interview and sort of terrifying, but you know what? I impressed them so much they gave me an offer a few hours later.

It probably has nothing to do with the fact that I dreamt I was pregnant but man, this shit happens. Anyway, I HAVE A JOB. AN AMAZING ONE AT THAT. So I am pleaaaaased, and I want to say thank you to all of you who supported me through the bitching, and TAKE THAT, NOW EX-BOSS WHO TOLD ME TWO DAYS AGO I WAS DOING THINGS WRONG IN INTERVIEWS.

Alllllll the group hug and high five gifs are more than welcome, I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLL.

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So, merry Christmas you guys! I am currently at home with my parents, after one hell of a trek yesterday that had me forgetting my passport and missing my Eurostar and having a breakdown. All is well now, my dog is currently slobbering over my pj bottoms and my mum is making me coffee and I have had wayyyy too much to eat.

So, as it is Christmas, does anyone want drabbles? Like, I'd say Avengers things. Whatever you want? If you want something seasonal or something zombified or something AU-ish, just let me know. As long as its not Steve/Tony, which is a pairing I still have difficulties with. Lalalaaaaa ^_^.

RANDOMEST CHRISTMAS POST EVER HELLOOOOOO.

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Couldn't sleep, so just watched Thor.

I guess I understand much better now fandom's obsession over Tom Hiddleston, and Chris Hemsworth's back.

...Yeah.

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