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So, as Scott Caan would say, I went and got my hair did at the weekend. I do it maybe twice a year because I can rarely be arsed, so it's always sort of an event for me. Lookit! I went shorter than I usually do but I like it, even if it's taking me a while to get used to it. I got many a compliment at work so I'm quite pleased *^_^*.

Other than that, I have reached 11.5K on my Teen Wolf Big Bang, which means I wrote over 2K at the weekend, which is very pleasing to me, considering these days I struggle to write over 500 words a day. I wrote it all on Sunday afternoon/evening so it's a good rhythm!

lanyon helped me make sense of my thoughts, and I pushed through a small blockage I had, and managed to write a couple of very important scenes, so, happy! will definitely get over the 15K required for this; I really want to get to the point where I'm close to be finished with it, even if I can't post it just yet. I am enjoying writing it immensely, but I also want to see the finished product, if that makes any sense...Anyway, I reached a turning point, and now I have a few questions for you, my literary, beautiful flist:

Can you think of any great book that ends with one of the characters coming home, or someone important coming back to them? ETA: I think I'm going to use Homer's The Odyssey. Kind of an obvious one, but it's not like this story is subtle anyway ^^.

And also: how many of you have read The Time Traveler's Wife? Because I use its plot in the story and I'm wondering if it will put off many people because there are spoilers from the book in there.

Let me know!

Anyway, for your time, and if you're interested, have a tiny bit of the story:
( Teen Wolf Big Bang, Adventure Times! )

So, as you probably know (you may not, though, which is why I'm telling you now),

sirona_gs launched a Write ALL THE THINGS Week, which is merely a little motivational post for all of us to get back on track with writing; some of us has lost the plot recently with so much stuff going on in our lives recently.

So, I've decided that for this week, I'll focus on my military!Clint story. Long story short: since watching the movie, and in particular that one scene in Med Bay with Clint and Natasha, I have wanted to write Clint's backstory as a military career type of person. The way he holds himself and acts and talks in the movie just fit that description, and by pushing a little at the corners of his comics origin story, I think it works.

So I've started writing this story, and I know where I want it to go. I don't think it will have a huge audience because there is no slash and no pairing; it's about Clint, and his journey through his life and his thoughts and how it leads him to SHIELD. Coulson does make appearances, but it's not about being romantic. So, really, it's quite out of the box for me, it's not something I'm used to do, especially since I want to be realistic about the military aspect of it, and I want to create a great atmosphere and I want details and I don't want to fuck it up.

Anyway, this is my project, d'you want an excerpt?

( If you do, here it is )

Now, if only work would let me write some more today...I've been busy with football watching and things happening and I'm seeing

lanyon on Sunday and I am SO EXCITED about this and vfndjkvbgfjkl work, allow me to write a little please.

So let's see, where am I at, at the moment:

- started soldier!Clint. About 700 words written, ideas abound. I want it to be detailed, though, so requires quite a bit of research. Need to watch GK again.

- stalled on hitman!Bucky. Haven't touched it in a while, which makes me fairly sad. I guess it'll be one of these very slow going ones.

- wrote words upon words upon words of porn in the rockstar!AU with

lanyon, it's a happy place and so easy to fall into, and to bounce words back and forth.

- I'm signing up for two big bangs when

marvel_bang opens for sign-ups; one with

lanyon (strippers!) and one with

sirona_gs (sexy wars!). It's all very exciting.

- All of this tends to show that I suck at writing alone.

- I was bitten by this silly bunny of The Avengers as a surfers crew. Thor's like, the one that looks so good in a wetsuit they keep him because the sponsors love him, even if he's not that good at surfing; Tony's the engineer behind the boards; Clint and Nat like to surf in tandem out of competitions, they're too good individually not to want to compete separately; Steve is prodigal with a windsurf; Bucky's their photographer, following them around the world for a book of pictures about them; Nick's the manager but it's Coulson and JARVIS that keep the crew house in shape and babysit the lot of them most of the time.
I DON'T KNOW, OKAY, MY THING FOR SURFERS, LET ME SHOW YOU IT, I DON'T EVEN GET IT.

Been sick all day carrying a Japanese katsu curry I've not digested very well yesterday, but hey, there was at least one good thing happening today, which is that I've got this in the mail:

Which is STUPIDLY EXCITING. It's slightly tight, but I'll have to wear it enough to stretch it ^^.

In other news, wrote 1K of cagefighting!Clint in the Tube the other morning, because I now have a Netbook and it is the most amazing thing ever for me to be able to write in the Tube efficiently, you have no idea, so, THERE. THIS MIGHT BE HAPPENING FOR REAL.

Pom pom pom, having a WHY CAN'T I WRITE WHY AM I SHIT AT THIS moment. Seriously SO frustrated, I want to rip my hair out and cry and throw a tantrum, all at the same time. It is a shame I am not actually 4 year old any more.

Don't mind meeeeeeee, instead, do stare for a moment at Jeremy Renner (again, yes, sue me) :

I'm not very good at historical accuracy, and even if I'd like to, thing is, I don't have the time to put in the research I should put in, writing the fic I am writing at the moment. Anyone objects to a fic set during WWII about Air Force servicemen that doesn't reallyyyyyyy include all that many things about the war and war-like things? And if the war scenes are confused and blurry and scared because of said historical accuracy, but first and foremost because that's the way I believe things would rush through Danny's head as it happens?

I don't know. I think it works, I really do, but I don't want to offend anyone writing something without putting in all the research I should.

I don't have anything else to say than I love them so much, I love them so much. I cannot deal.

Now I just need to work for a while before I can get back to fic. Haven't been this eager and excited to write in a while.

I leave you with this.

Thank you, darling DDK. You are the best.

I want to be a writer. I want to be able to say "I'm a writer". Once upon a time I wanted to be J.K. Rowling - not for the fame, but for the talent, and for the love she cultured and grew with her fans and HP fans.

I still want to write the story, the one that moves and gets people all over writing about it. In a smaller scale, in fandom, I want to write that story that people remember, that makes people feel, laugh, cry, want, cherish. I want to be special, to be unique at this.

As it is, I'm not. I'm an average fanfiction writer, and I know what I'm doing but I've not been trained on it - I go with my gut, and sometimes it's enough, but I feel like it could be so much more, I want it to be so much more. I want to learn about it, make myself better at it, maybe someone a little special, a little unique.

A while ago, I toyed with the idea of doing this course, but quickly had to put the idea in a little box and hide it under the rest of my life, pretend I could forget about it, because thing is - I can't afford it. As much as I want to do it, I'm in this stage in life where I have bills to pay and a need for material things and travels that keep me from saving a lot of money. I know I could do it, but at the moment it's too hard, and too disheartening, and I simply refuse to lean on my family for this. My parents cannot afford it any more than I do, and I'm too attached to my monetary independence, so fucking hard-earned.

So, that's out of the question for the moment. But it doesn't mean I have to give up, right? It doesn't mean I failed this, too. As I told

sirona_gs this morning, words are the only thing that really have stuck with me through my whole life. I've never been good at anything in particular. I tried music and failed, I tried science and failed, I tried design and failed. But my words, even though I have a hard time expressing myself so often, my words have always been there. And they've not always been good, but I've been shaping them, and myself, for so long now, they're part of my very being, they're part of how I let go of feelings I can't quite express, they're helping me go through my life, day by day, by being this outlet, private or not, this place where I can just pour myself out into characters and their lives.

My words are the only that I've never failed. When I was bullied in high school, I wrote emo, angsty stories that nobody ever would ever read, but it helped. When I lost my first important boyfriend, I wrote a song that a dear friend of mine then took and put melody to and sung, just for me, a little recording over a computer mic, something special and private to the two of us. When I first discovered fandom, it was an escape to a life I hated, into the life of characters that didn't necessarily have it better, but had the courage to do something about it.

And I think that's how it began - the dream to be able to do this, to create something that could bring people together, make them feel better about their own lives, find friends that mean more than words can say. That's why I wanted to be J.K. Rowling, too.

It's like - a reason to go on, right? I want to do this. I want to get better, to get amazing, above average and nothing special, just one author in a midst of authors. I want to push myself and make myself this special, unique person. And, okay, I can't afford taking a class just now, but I can buy a book and help myself, can't I? So I have. Maybe it won't change anything, but at least it's a start.

And you know what? This discovery, and this work I'm doing on myself, to get some balls and get to what I want, I owe it to you guys. I owe it to

theellibu and

stjarna1984, my two best friends, that are more of an inspiration to me than they'll ever realise, and I owe it to

sirona_gs, and to

tailoredshirt, and the rest of you, because you make me want to write you the best stories and surpass myself, time and time again.

It's

shinysylver's birthday today! Happy birthday hun! Hope you have the best of days ♥, filled with Captain America and Tony Stark and Steve and Danny :nod nod:.

Talking about Steve and Danny - and Chin and Kono, these promo shots, just. I mean, unf, right? Unf is the word.
( You've most certainly seen this, but, heh. )

I feel like I need a new fandom to play around in. I was talking with

sirona_gs yesterday about it, how it'd be good for me to put a little distance so I don't get as annoyed with everything that's going on in the H50 fandom lately; I don't find it the healthiest place to be in at the moment, and I'd enjoy being able to turn away to something else when I need it. But nothing has hit me like this show has, recently. I'm not into the film ships going on lately - I sort of feel assaulted by them everywhere and thus I tend to turn away. So, I don't know. It's hard, you guys. If there's anything you think I should check out, let me know!
In the meantime, if anyone wants to point me towards awesome Eames/Arthur fic (preferably long and meaty, I have a weakness for AU), I'll take it. I've not read them much, but they're so lovely.

Big weekend. Managed a series of good and bad things, but in the end, it was rather enjoyable! I do not deal well with this heat, though, let me tell you.

( Writing things )

And that is it. I have not started a new fic yet, still enjoying the easy work with awesome writing partners for now, we'll see when I feel the pull for more.

For now, I am doing like Scotty Caan, I am hanging loose, brah.

There are parts of fandom I really don't understand. Oh, well.

Recs! Both codas for 2.01 so if you haven't seen it, wait before reading these. They're wonderful though, so do read them!

to hold on to by

elandrialore. If you don't read everything she writes already you're missing out on pretty perfect fic. This one, though ♥.

and

half full by

thegrrrl2002. It brought me to tears by being so right.

I wish I had that kind of talent, you guys. Go read!

( Some ramble about writing and all. Also, a picture as your reward. )