In which I complain a lot, so feel free to skip.

[delicatale]

As a disclaimer, I'd like to say that I love my job. I do, it's challenging, and interesting, and the people I work with are great.

But fuck me I'm frustrated these days. I get to work and I want to punch people in the face. Recently I've been given new responsibilities, so I've been learning PPC (pay-per-click). It's awesome, and I enjoy it, but I also have my primary tasks to do, right (SEO is my job, which is search engine optimisation)? The other day, in a meeting, one of my PPC managers tells me 'you've been doing good, so we're going to give you a new project', and he explains it in very vague details. The thing is, I have limited knowledge in PPC, right, and I feel like he's going to put this on my shoulders when I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do, and I'm not sure he's certain of what he wants, either.

And then there's the fact that I've been made ~second in command in another project, a website we own (we're an agency, most of our money comes from clients). So me and a colleague have been working on plans and things to do for the website to get more traffic and more customers, but two other people are involved, and they're the salespersons, you know? They talk a lot and they don't do much. So they keep on asking me to do this and that and this and this and that and change this and email about that and redo the design and add a blog roll and create a new sitemap and get all the 404 sorted and and and and. Like, we have meetings, right, and they're all talking and talking and in the end, who gets all the work? Me, of course.

And then on Wednesdays I'm helping out on stuff I've never been supposed to do - a series of PPC reports for our biggest client, that requires a lot of work. I never used to have to help on it, but since I ~joined the PPC team, sort of, that has been shoved on me as well, and it basically sucks off my whole Wednesday.

It's like I'm some sort of dumping ground for everybody else. The only ones in this company leaving me alone are the social media guys, because I've not yet touched that part. But I'm finding myself compiling reports I don't even really understand (or need to understand), preparing presentations for other people, making plans for projects and don't get to sit in on the important meetings, have to do this and that and this about a project I'm supposed to be leading - people are not really letting me do that, basically, and sometimes they're asking for things from me, but I'm not sure they actually understand what they want?

And then there's the part where they waited 3 weeks to tell me I couldn't have my days off for Christmas so I had to buy really expensive train tickets to go home for 3 days and a half, when I could have had them for much less expensive.

....Basically, I need a break. I need a good, solid break, far away from all this. Every day I feel like I'm going to either break down into tears or punch someone in the face, or get really aggravated, and I just can't afford to do that. So. I need a break, and our holiday is coming up, and I cannot wait, because, shit, man.

Okay, I'm done. Sorry about this.

Comments

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

I wish they'd tell me more often that I'm doing a good job. It'd help, at least a bit.

I think Danny should more importantly give me a lot of cuddles. nod nod.

[thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com]

I don't think that's too much to ask for, in either case!