In which I complain a lot, so feel free to skip.

[delicatale]

As a disclaimer, I'd like to say that I love my job. I do, it's challenging, and interesting, and the people I work with are great.

But fuck me I'm frustrated these days. I get to work and I want to punch people in the face. Recently I've been given new responsibilities, so I've been learning PPC (pay-per-click). It's awesome, and I enjoy it, but I also have my primary tasks to do, right (SEO is my job, which is search engine optimisation)? The other day, in a meeting, one of my PPC managers tells me 'you've been doing good, so we're going to give you a new project', and he explains it in very vague details. The thing is, I have limited knowledge in PPC, right, and I feel like he's going to put this on my shoulders when I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do, and I'm not sure he's certain of what he wants, either.

And then there's the fact that I've been made ~second in command in another project, a website we own (we're an agency, most of our money comes from clients). So me and a colleague have been working on plans and things to do for the website to get more traffic and more customers, but two other people are involved, and they're the salespersons, you know? They talk a lot and they don't do much. So they keep on asking me to do this and that and this and this and that and change this and email about that and redo the design and add a blog roll and create a new sitemap and get all the 404 sorted and and and and. Like, we have meetings, right, and they're all talking and talking and in the end, who gets all the work? Me, of course.

And then on Wednesdays I'm helping out on stuff I've never been supposed to do - a series of PPC reports for our biggest client, that requires a lot of work. I never used to have to help on it, but since I ~joined the PPC team, sort of, that has been shoved on me as well, and it basically sucks off my whole Wednesday.

It's like I'm some sort of dumping ground for everybody else. The only ones in this company leaving me alone are the social media guys, because I've not yet touched that part. But I'm finding myself compiling reports I don't even really understand (or need to understand), preparing presentations for other people, making plans for projects and don't get to sit in on the important meetings, have to do this and that and this about a project I'm supposed to be leading - people are not really letting me do that, basically, and sometimes they're asking for things from me, but I'm not sure they actually understand what they want?

And then there's the part where they waited 3 weeks to tell me I couldn't have my days off for Christmas so I had to buy really expensive train tickets to go home for 3 days and a half, when I could have had them for much less expensive.

....Basically, I need a break. I need a good, solid break, far away from all this. Every day I feel like I'm going to either break down into tears or punch someone in the face, or get really aggravated, and I just can't afford to do that. So. I need a break, and our holiday is coming up, and I cannot wait, because, shit, man.

Okay, I'm done. Sorry about this.

Comments

[shinysylver.livejournal.com]

Don't feel sorry, we are here to listen. *hugs*

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

It's not really interesting, but ah, well. It's my life at the moment!

[thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com]

Oh, how frustrating! That sucks. Do we need to send Danny there to get all Jersey up on your co-workers? Because he totally would. For you.

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

I wish they'd tell me more often that I'm doing a good job. It'd help, at least a bit.

I think Danny should more importantly give me a lot of cuddles. nod nod.

[thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com]

I don't think that's too much to ask for, in either case!

[finduilas-clln.livejournal.com]

That sucks. Is there any way you can refuse when everyone keeps trying to give you work? Or a boss you can talk to about this? It doesn't seem fair that they keep pushing all the work to you. :(

Thank about LA! It'll be your well-deserved break!

Oh, and shinysylver is right (she's a smart one!), you shouldn't be sorry! Venting can help sometimes, and we're all here to listen. :)

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

Well, everybody got a really large workload as well, so it's not like they could just do all of it themselves and they're just doing this because they're dicks. And I know that there are good intentions as well, to give me better skills and managerial knowledge, as well, but sometimes it just feels like I'm doing so much, it's overwhelming.

[finduilas-clln.livejournal.com]

I get that. It still doesn't seem fair. They should hire an extra person or something, if everyone's handling too much work. But I know it doesn't always work like that. :(

Are there periods in the year that there's less work? Is this just an extra busy period and will it calm down soon? Or is it always like this?

[finduilas-clln.livejournal.com]

Maybe some smiley Alex will cheer you up a bit?

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

Always does!

[somehowunbroken]

/alllllll the hugs

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

♥

[http://users.livejournal.com/_thelostcity/]

*HUGS* That sounds very frustrating. I'm going to guess that the reason behind all of this stuff being dumped on you is: you're good at your job. In my department (which has absolutely nothing to do with anything you do, unless you count that we have a website at all), the people who are good at their jobs and get their stuff in on time end up with so much more work. Because they can be trusted to do it well, do it fairly quickly, turn it in, and do it period. The people who slack get rewarded by us not giving them stuff because we need it done asap and they just won't. It's not fair, and it's frustrating.

In short: I feel for you. Sucks. And sometimes you just need to vent. *hugs* again

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

maybe? I mean, I'm not bad at it, and I respond to instructions well. We're all fairly busy but the thing is, I'm one which role is a little blurry - it didn't use to be but since I got on the PPC side of things, it started getting a bit less structured. So I feel overwhelmed, but I'll get over it!

[forcellari.livejournal.com]

Ugh! Maybe you can ask for help from your manager to renegotiate some deadlines? :-\

*hugs*

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

Well, the good thing is, I don't really have deadlines. The bad side of that is that I get told 'we're going to do this and that' and sometimes, it never comes to life, so I get the stress for no reason. But, yeah. For now my deadlines are mostly self-imposed, they're not really my issue.

[bandbfan.livejournal.com]

Sorry you are having a crap time right now with work...or always by the sounds of it!
Wish I had more to offer than *NEKKID DANNY HUGS*
Hope that your day gets better!!

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

No, not always. I'm just tired and overwhelmed at the moment, but it's not something I feel all the time. I'm guessing it'll be much better after I get some time off.
Naked Danny hugs sound good! Shame I can't go back to bed right now...

[gothikmaus.livejournal.com]

That sounds frustrating indeed. =/ Just focus on the fact that you do like your job and you're going on holiday soon. <3

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

I try. I manage to escape from time to time, write a bit, focus on the good stuff. Yesterday late afternoon I just gave up and chatted with friends. Needed the break ^^.

[gunslingaaahhh.livejournal.com]

is there a higher-up you can go to about this? because its one thing to be damned good at what you do, and another to be taken advantage of because of it. especially when you're in the middle of learning something new and only just getting the hang of it.

tell these people that while you don't mind helping them, you can really only do so much at once (especially if they arent even giving you all the details, the fuck). they need to stop just dumping everything on you just because they assume you can get it all finished for them.

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

Well, that's the thing - nobody could do much about it, because we're all fairly busy with everything. We got new clients on board recently so it's all a blur for my manager, who takes care of them, and he has to rely on me for the older clients. And then we work with a gambling client, and we're nearing Christmas so things are getting hotter here as well.

I'm guessing that secondary project, the PPC one, will be the one I'll be pushing back if I don't have time for it, and I'm thinking they'll let me do that. After all, there is so much I can do by myself without knowing exactly what's wanted of me, so until they can give me more details about it, I'm not going to push, either, and focus on my other project (which is more exciting for me anyway!).

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

Oh god, hon. *draws you into a big, solid hug* Sounds horribly frustrating. You should maybe talk you your line manager about this. It won't do to have you get completely overwhelmed.

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

I don't think there is anything they could do. I just need to get used to having people firing stuff at me from everywhere - this company is so fast, and things are going to fast, I need to get on with the music.