in which i boringly reflect.

[delicatale]

Sometimes, I wish I had the money and the time to just, go away, give myself memories for a lifetime. I wish I could just quit my job, pack a bag, go travelling. We're watching a documentary about migrations, and I see the American West and I felt this jolt in my spine, the desire to, for once, be somewhere where there is nothing but nature around me. I've always been a city girl, and I feel more comfortable in cities - I don't drive, and I like having the possibility of going around the corner to buy some milk at 10pm if I want to.

But I see this on my tv, and I wish I could do it. Go away for a couple of months, take in something completely different, open my eyes to nature that I actually never really see, not truly. I want to walk around and have nothing, no houses, no electric lines, no phone signal, just. I want to sit somewhere beautiful and listen, hear birds and water and wind in leaves, forget about the sounds of the city.

It's not something I want for the rest of my life, but sometimes, sometimes it's something I desperately want, if only for a little time. I've never lived that way, and I wonder how I'd feel about it. Just thinking about it is a little overwhelming in how different it is.

All of this might be overlooked, but anyway, hey, look, it's Scotty Caan being mindblowingly gorgeous:



(Muaythai Premiere League on September 2, 2011 in Long Beach, California.)

Comments

[gyri.livejournal.com]

Oh my gosh. Wonder why he's hiding behind his hands in the last pic. That's too damn adorable. *sigh*

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

Well he's watching a fight, so there is a lot of reasons possible!

[azziria.livejournal.com]

See, I'm not a city girl. I've lived in cities and I've lived out, and my drive is *always* towards the empty places, I start to die just a little bit inside if I don't get out there from time to time and clear my head. It's one of the reasons I don't like skiing - I like my mountains empty, not packed with people. Very occasionally I spend a few days in the Lakes or the Dales walking on my own - I get up really early and climb before most people are up, please myself, enjoy what I see and hear that you miss when you're with other people talking and making noise. And then I go home with my batteries recharged :)

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

Living in London, it's hard to just get away from the noise and the habits. And I've only been once to the countryside since I moved here - I always tend to go on citybreaks when going away on weekends and all. Sometimes I just want to *stop*, and look at something else entirely. I wonder what effect it'd have on me.

[jazzybabe56.livejournal.com]

babe! maybe you need to vacation in the west of America! it can do wonders for you to go where your soul is telling you to go.....and perhaps the "twitch" you feel in your stomach is actually a remembrance of a life past when you were actually in the West of America.....maybe you need to "go home" for a bit in this lifetime....:-)

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

It's not quite that easy - if I could, I would. But I'm far too ~responsible and I have not the funds to just go away like that!

[jazzybabe56.livejournal.com]

you have a responsiblity to yourself as well.....I"m sure you know this....and sometimes "itches" need to be scratched or they fester into something worse.....perhaps you can find a way - I hope you can....:-)

[vickita.livejournal.com]

(a) Holy shit, Scotty. Guh.

And

(b) If you can't do your escape for a couple of months, can you do it for a couple of weeks? Or one? Just to get a taste and see if it's something you'd actually like?

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

(a) I know, right? He looks so gorgeous.

(b) My next holiday, I'm going to LA, so another citybreak, and then I don't have any days off left to take, besides a handful to go and spend Christmas with my family. Next year, maybe. I don't even have to go as far as the US, even though I really want to, there are some places here in the UK that are amazing, too.

[miss-tartie.livejournal.com]

hey Scotty how so pretty? Guh!

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

=D

[kitmerlot1213.livejournal.com]

What awesome pics!

I love seeing Scott smiling with such abandon--he's having a damn good time--thanks for posting these :):)

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

He looks so gorgeous, it makes my stomach twist a little. Oh, Scott.

[gunslingaaahhh.livejournal.com]

well you guys are coming to see me, and you'll be flying over nothingness... i know its not the same, but *shrug*.

i dont like living squashed in w/ other people; its frustrating living in an apartment now when i grew up in a house with a yard and a driveway and not having to listen to my neighbors go about their morning routines. i like space between me and other people, but not a fuckton.

driving across the country and seeing the vast flatness of like arkansas and texas made me sick; i grew up with gritty earth and craggy shores and rollings hills, not flatness. i dont think i could spend a lot of time where i couldnt at least get to the ocean.

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

Ahahah, don't go thinking that I'm regretting the decision! Because I'm not, I am so excited, it's a little bit silly.

But I do wonder how I'll react to living in a place where things aren't so close to me all the time, where there isn't traffic all the time, where I don't fall asleep lulled by the sound of cars. It's something I've never really lived...

[gunslingaaahhh.livejournal.com]

=D <3

its definitely different... im used to hearing a train go by periodically, and the church bells counting off the hours, not traffic (we're just close enough to the highway that you can hear it, but it isnt loud) or school bells, etc. its also weird being able to hear other people showering or babies screaming.

do you go camping at all? thats a good way to find out if you like being separated from all of that ;)

[lunachickk.livejournal.com]

OMG, he's pretty. *sigh*

I grew up right outside NYC and lived there most of my life. I then moved to North Carolina and now live in a small town right on the coast. I'm bored to tears. I probably should have traveled first. LOL

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

He is so, so pretty.

Ah, see, I am pretty sure that I wouldn't want to live in a small town, ever, but I really want to see it!

[star98hope.livejournal.com]

so I'm not sure where you are geographically, but traveling out west can be remarkably cheap, especially if you do things like tent camping. and yeah, being someplace like Yellowstone or the Tetons or Arches is awe-inspiring and clears your head in unexpected ways. I totally recommend it. :)

also. Scott. stop being so freaking hot and adorable, it's really distracting combination. XD

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

Well, I live in the UK, so everything concerning seeing the US becomes quite the planning and everything.

[star98hope.livejournal.com]

ah. sorry, didn't realize. yes, that would be quite a journey...

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

Ahah, don't think I said ;D

[willow-fae-20.livejournal.com]

Eye. Crinkles. That is all.

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

=DD

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

So recently my wages have been a bit late in coming, and with one thing and another, I'm a month behind. Which means I've got about 600 quid squirreled away (because living at home with one's parents is good for one thing at least), and I'm torn about what to do with it. I'm going to get my tattoos done, there is that, and then I've been wanting a new phone (which you'll remember), BUT. I keep thinking I should just save them and then buy a plane ticket to London. And come over for a long-arse weekend. And spend time with you guys, and raven_lore. And go adventuring with you. AND BUY ALL THE BOOKS EVER.

The dilemma, it burns.

Also I really want to go back to Prague at some point. Travelling recharges my batteries unlike anything else. I've been thinking recently of cutting myself off from buying shit I don't need, and just save and save and save, and then go somewhere for long weekends every three months or something. I'm also more of a city dweller than wilderness enthusiast, but sometimes a little peace and quiet is just what one needs. The fantastic thing for you is that you don't have to leave the country even! There are some beautiful places in the UK just a train ride away! /wistful sigh

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

Oh my God, coooooooooooooome to see uuuuuuuuuuuuuussssssssssssss!

[gothikmaus.livejournal.com]

I'm more of a city girl myself, I'd move back to Berlin in a heartbeat if I could, but sometimes you just need a change of scenery. Like, I've never been a big fan of seaside holidays (probably because I always end up terribly sunburnt), but this year I just... craved some seaside time. I suspect falling headfirst into the H50 fandom may have something to do with that. ;)

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

We're planning on going to Brighton for the day next weekend, which I'm really looking forward to, if only to be at the seaside for a little bit. I do love it, there is something soothing about it...