delicatale

That's the thing - I live by the shadows of people better than I am at writing, people that inspire others, that make them want to write, make them feel so many things. And I don't do that, and it destroys me when I think too hard about it. It's a slow going thing but I really want to get there, to that place where I'm happy with the way I write and just try to improve myself, for myself. I get so stressed when I'm proud of something, and I'm putting it out there, as you've been the witness of, and I don't want to feel this way so much. In a way, it makes me feel alive, in another, it makes me so stressed when it doesn't have to be this way. I need to grow into my own style, my own writing, even more than I have in the past, and it's this process I want to go through.

*makes note* I have never heard of it! I am interested.