I wasn't criticizing you for having insecurities. I just know from lots of experience that it doesn't matter how much encouragement you get, at the end of the day you just have to decide for yourself that you are good enough, but even if you aren't then fuck it all, you're still going to write it anyway because you want to. About a year ago I had this epiphany that, you are a bad writer...but that's okay. Like, it was the most freeing thing I've ever felt. It just let me put my ego aside for a while so that I wasn't doubting myself all the time, wasn't comparing myself to other people. It let me start in a place where I felt like the only place I could go is up, and I could practice and teach myself to get better, and I could let myself make mistakes. I actually need to get back to that place again. When you put this pressure on yourself to be perfect, it stops being fun and it starts getting hard. And it is hard to put the insecurities aside but I think that's why you just have to tell yourself that you're not going to think about those things. Force yourself, fake it til you make it.
I am always here to be reminded and do the reminding.
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I am always here to be reminded and do the reminding.