delicatale: (Steve the Lt Commander is sad)
(Last call if you want a postcard from LA - Leave me your address here!)

I am watching Warrior - during my commute, so I am about 45 minutes in right now, and it's bad quality but urghl, I am an impatient, terrible person so whatever. And, well, watching this is making me think about Steve's relationship with Papa McGarrett.

Canon, we don't know much about it. We know Jack McGarrett was a cop, and sent his kids away - to protect them, however he did not tell them that when he did it. We also know that Steve and his father didn't speak often.

In my head, I blame Papa McGarrett for most of Steve's issues. In my head, they didn't have a good relationship. I imagine a kid, looking up to his dad and wanting to be just like him, but a kid that waits up for his father to say goodnight to him, only to be disappointed, over and over again. I imagine an empty seat at Thanksgiving, Mommy McGarrett working hard to keep her kids entertained, and give them an actual Thanksgiving dinner. I imagine Jack McGarrett to be a man that loved his kids, and to kiss his son's brow at night, when Steve is asleep, but I also imagine him married to his job, distant, busy.

I imagine Steve growing up into puberty and his teenage years and growing disappointed, full of delusions about family values and fatherly hugs. I imagine him thinking he's not good enough to get his father's attention, his mother dying and his father sending him away the last straw. I imagine Steve throwing himself into military school and the Navy and BUD/S to make himself feel worthwhile, to maybe do something worth of his father's attention. I imagine Steve's hero complex and I-don't-deserve-nice-things issue stems from his relationship with his dad.

And knowing that his father came to all his football games, or called the base to kn ow how he was doing in training won't really change years and years of Steve telling himself his father just couldn't deal with them, that they were too much for him, his own kids.

I wish we knew more about his mother. Knew how she was with them, how she acted with Steve and Mary-Ann. Maybe it'd balance things in my head. As it is, I blame Jack McGarrett.

- feel free to totally disagree with me, as long as you don't just tell me I am full of shit ^_^.
delicatale: (Steve swimming)
There are parts of fandom I really don't understand. Oh, well.

Recs! Both codas for 2.01 so if you haven't seen it, wait before reading these. They're wonderful though, so do read them!

to hold on to by [livejournal.com profile] elandrialore. If you don't read everything she writes already you're missing out on pretty perfect fic. This one, though ♥.

and

half full by [livejournal.com profile] thegrrrl2002. It brought me to tears by being so right.

I wish I had that kind of talent, you guys. Go read!

Some ramble about writing and all. Also, a picture as your reward. )
delicatale: (Steve breaks my heart)
[livejournal.com profile] theellibu found this, and, just. My heart.

Deleted scenes from 1.24.


That cargument, my heart is exploding. Steve, Steve loves Danny so much. He could be yelling it from the rooftops and it'd have the same effect on me. ♥ and then, heartbreak, so much heartbreak, I. vjfkrb;gbn.
delicatale: (Steve arm unf)
Am sick. Like, weird sick where I feel light-headed and crampy but not bad enough to stay home, so I went to work anyway, wondering what kind of meds I can buy from the Boots across the street to hopefully make me feel better. Am a bit hot and cold and exhausted but hey, I have work to do, I should focus on that.

If you have anything up your sleeve to make me feel better, though, fire away. You can call it an official cheer-up post or something!

Something that cheered me up - I saw this on [livejournal.com profile] leupagus's lj and I've never seen this picture before and I disagree with every person commenting on her post saying he's too hairy and douchey, I'd do him SO HARD, I know it's douchey but oh, wow, I don't give a fuck by that point.




Watched Harry's Arctic Heroes yesterday, and it moved me to the brink of tears. I am fascinated and so inspired by stories of injured soldiers finding a new meaning to their life, refusing to fall into darkness. One of them had his back broken during an attack in Afghanistan, doctors didn't think he'd be able to walk again, and yet he did. And then he trekked through the Arctic to reach the North Pole. And guess what? His name is Steve.
I got way involved in the show (you can ask [livejournal.com profile] theellibu and [livejournal.com profile] stjarna1984), and sat, awed, by these men and how brave they were. It's incredible, and it gave me, I believe, this push I needed for my Steve-has-a-spinal-cord-injury fic, to go on with it and write it as I want it to be written. It might take me a long time, but I really want to write that story.
delicatale: (Steve swimming)
Is there a 'Steve-is-a-pro-surfer' AU somewhere in this world? Because I haven't seen it, and I might have ideas for one now. I blame [livejournal.com profile] tailoredshirt for being an enabler. So tell me if you've read this story somewhere...(edit: I have been told there is one, but it's quite far from what I want to write, so, all hope is not lost)

Apart from that, um.



delicatale: (SotT must be tuesday)
I know, I KNOW, I JUST POSTED PICTURES, BUT EXCUSE ME WHILE I RUN AROUND IN CIRCLES, MAKING HAPPY STEVE-IS-A-COWBOY NOISES AT THIS ONE, OKAY.



Sorry for the disruption.
delicatale: (Steve swimming)
So yesterday I spent most of my time, when I wasn't working, Googling spinal cord injuries and how they completely change people's lives around. Mildly depressing I'll admit, but also very educational.

Thing is, this fic idea I have won't let me go, and yet it won't expand into something I can really work with. So I have this idea, burning my brain, of Steve injured and coming back home and finding something to hold on to, not to lose his will to live and his strength. I can't find the something.

Although, hold my horses, I think I might have found it, through Scotty Caan, actually. Now this story is sprouting wings. Steve and his love for the water, not being able to be in it so much anymore because of his injury, of his useless legs...rediscovers surfing. And discovers Life Rolls On.

And meets Danny, too. This could actually lead somewhere...
delicatale: (Alex my body is ready backupplan)
So remember that entry I did where I wrote about Steve turning into a bit of a cowboy? Yeah. I started writing it to amuse [livejournal.com profile] theellibu and [livejournal.com profile] stjarna1984, and of course it grew on me. So I'm dedicating it to them and [livejournal.com profile] their_darkness who made me think WAY TOO MUCH about all of this when I first posted about it :'). [livejournal.com profile] sirona_gs read this over and helped me with it.

Basic plot is a case forces Steve to hide away in a safe house to protect an infant. It's not really his style but he makes do.

you say the storm will pass, R, 2191 words )
delicatale: (Steve thumb up!)
So. So I see this:



And then I think. I think Steve on the run, or at least in hiding because - fuck, I don't know, a reason X or Y why he would accept to stay in hiding (actually I can mix this and STEVE+BABY, [livejournal.com profile] sirona_gs, he hides with baby and for once he stays put because well, there's a baby - now I still don't know why) and they find him a little house with high walls and bright paint in the outskirts of Honolulu and Steve is going batshit mental stuck in there and Danny doesn't show for days because he doesn't want to compromise Steve's hiding place and Steve is starting to turn a little cowboy, walking around shirtless with a gun stuck in the waistband of his jeans and he doesn't shave as much as usual and his hair is getting messy and when Danny finally comes he's greeted by the muzzle of a Colt first and then Steve in all his crazy, horny beautiful glory. Steve would spend a lot of time outside ~surveying or whatever and he'd tan so much because he's shirtless all the time and his skin is golden and there's a sheen of sweat and when Danny touches him it's a little tacky and so warm and Steve's jeans are so so so low on his hips and he's totally going commando so when he's naked and Danny is running his tongue down the back of his hip he can totally taste gun oil and it's disgusting and perfect at the same time yes.

I DON'T KNOW. I JUST. YEAH. MY HEAD.
delicatale: (Tom Loooove)
Morning you guys!

Work is so quiet this morning, there's only 4 of us in the office, and I have to say - I like it. I still don't have much to do so my day should consist of writing and editing php files in notebook because I am hardcore and shit. (edit: by the time I'm finishing this entry, there is now 6 of us! Including my office crush who walked from Euston and is soaked from head to toe because London is very wet today and I have very inappropriate thoughts right now. HE LOOKS VERY PRETTY WET OKAY.)

Speaking of notebook, the other night Tom - from McFly - and his fiancee went to see Shrek the Musical and she tweeted saying that he dressed up as Noah from The Notebook and then we saw pictures and okay. The flat cap and the rolled up jeans and the awful awful moustache just don't do it for me. Considering what an amazing face he has, I don't want him to sport a moustache.

BUT. Then there were these pictures:


AND I MEAN COME ON. THAT IS THE CUTEST THING AND BLESS THEM, THEY ARE SO IN LOVE AND SHE SAID THEY DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THEY WERE BEING PHOTOGRAPHED AND I LOVE THESE PICTURES OKAY IT'S SO GENUINE AND LOVELY.

From the Boxer!Danny soundtrack, I put a McFly song in - it wasn't the version I wanted. Here is the version I wanted:



Watch it, watch itttttt, you will not regret it, it's so beautiful.

Anyway. I should start posting Boxer!Danny soon. I am looking for a title, [livejournal.com profile] stjarna1984 has the first chapter to beta in her hands and we'll go from there. I'm getting closer to an end, now, and in a way, I am SO HAPPY because phew, that story is a lot of work, and in another way I am SO SAD because I have grown attached to these characters and this universe so so much. I don't know. We'll see. It's a labor of love, seriously, I've been living this fic for a while now. We'll see. but soon enough I'll stop talking about it! \o/ that should make you happy.

I'd love to have some cover art for the soundtrack but hey, it's not a big bang and I have lost my photoshop mojo a while ago. AW WELL.

I think it's all I've got for right now. Lalalaaaa ENTERTAIN ME PEOPLE.

Edit:


(click it gets bigger) HE. HE AND HIS FACE. HE COULD. JUST ANYTHING.
delicatale: (McDanno have a family)
So, okay, I'm getting [livejournal.com profile] stjarna1984 to write a scene with me where Steve and baby!Grace have some bonding time (in Boxer!Danny it makes sense), and this happened:

Von: THERE NEEDS TO BE AN AU WHERE STEVE WORKS IN A CRECHE
me: AHAH AW
Von: HE WOULD BE SO OVERWHELMED BY ALL THE TINY PEOPLE
AND DANNY WOULD BE HIS LONG SUFFEREING ASSISTANT
me: THAT DOES THE NAPPY CHANGING
BECAUSE ONCE STEVE SMELLED ONE AND ALMOST PASSED OUT

And then we got carried away. )

SOMEONE WRITE THIS PLEASE? Thank you.

♥.

May. 20th, 2011 11:14 am
delicatale: (Steve laughing)
There is a Steve-with-glasses meme hosted by [livejournal.com profile] their_darkness and I urge you all to go over and write Steve wearing glasses, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
delicatale: (McDanno huuuuuug)
Companion to feels like more than distance between us, but can be read on its own. This is the happier response, [livejournal.com profile] stjarna1984 beta'ed because she's awesome. Still spoiler heavy for the finale.

Steve gets out.

we were always just that close )
delicatale: (McDanno hot and angsty)
Post finale ficlet that doesn't solve anything but I needed it very badly. Danny visits Steve, when he is allowed. [livejournal.com profile] stjarna1984 looked this over because I bothered her with it.Obviously spoilery if you haven't seen the finale.

Feels like more than distance between us, PG-13, 673 words )

Companion piece: we were always just that close.

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